Saturday, July 9, 2011

The Condition of the Soil: The Condition of the Heart

Reading the parable of the Sower made me think of the value of what we put in our heart and feed in it and how it impacts what we are and, more importantly, do.

The seed that fells in hard soil is hard from being on the edge of the path. Thus the seed cannot penetrate the surface, and birds easily devour it. This is our refusal to understanding; our resistance takes away what was sown in our hearts.

The seed in shallow soil is the one with only “a thin layer of topsoil beneath which is a layer of limestone. The plant sprang up quickly, because the soil was shallow.” This soil heats up quickly eventually causing the plant to shivel up due to its lack of substantial root system. This is when we know the Word (what’s good in our hearts) but, under pressure and trouble, we fall away.

The seed in thorny soil tends “to be much hardier and more aggressive as they grow.” Thus, a young plant can quickly be overwhelmed and entangles, so that it receives little light and is deprived of nourishment. This is when we are distracted from the worries of this life and trying to satisfy this world, so we practice faith but don’t do the works.

Other seed fell on good soil and produce a crop of varying yields. The focus is on the result (producing a crop). This is when we understand (instead of hear), see (instead of look). This is our productive response, practicing faith and works. Then is when we love God with our heart, soul, and might, hence, producing fruits. Here, Jesus finds expression in us by what we do.

Has God’s Word fallen on hard soil? Is the soil of your mind on rocky places? Have you allowed God’s Word to be on thorny soil? Is your mind strangled by your self-love or your love for the things this world offers? Or do you have the soil of an open heart, with a spirit of humility?

Sources: Matthew 13: 3-23

Commentary by Dr. Knox Chamblin

Exegesis by Andrew S. Kulikovsky B.App.Sc (Hons)

Friday, July 1, 2011

A Moment of Abandonment

I have left my blog abandoned for a few months now, and I just wondered, have I done the same with my spiritual food? Not so much as going to Church, but living and experiencing my love for God, making every day purposeful in whatever way, and not letting the day pass without me recognizing it.

This week, I was in a negative mood. I guess I’m missing my spiritual time… the time to reflect, reconnect and re-engage in what matters. All of the sudden, the stress reached the level where I started to feel the need to protect myself and power through things/problems/challenges on my own (without the help of others or God). And I know here is when I can lose balance.

Among all this mini-mess and drama, I cannot stop saying Thanks for being much more self-aware. As I shared before, “thanks and praise” for all the great things I have experienced. And yes, I may still feel off but I recognize it and will do the things I need to get back to the real Yami.

I guess a little bit of crazy won’t kill me after all :-)